Welcome to my latest book which I self-published on Amazon Kindle on 6th September 2022. It costs only £1.99 and contains an offer of a 25% discount off courses for those who buy the book. There is a link below.
The book contains strategies, techniques and practices for mindfulness and is aimed at NQTs and all who work with children and young people. As a former school teacher and teacher trainer, both in the UK and abroad, I wanted to share mindfulness techniques in a way that I have used them over the past 25+ years of my career in Education.
A lot of the content has come from blogs from this blog as in the previous 2 years, I have posted everyday throughout August with a technique etc for NQTs to try out ahead of starting their new role (as the new academic year starts in September in the UK). Perhaps, you have already read some of these blogs.
This book brings them all together in one place and I have also added some more content either in the monthly format or in the extras/alternatives section. There are also some parts adapted from 2 of my previous books: ‘Being the Best You Can Be’ and ‘Mindful Walks to be in the present moment’. If you are interested in those books too then it’s good to know that Being the Best You Can Be is only 99p and will always be that price as i wish to help as many people as possible access the information shared within it and Mindful Walks is currently priced at £1.99 during the launch of this book and will return to its usual price of £4.99 in January 2023.
There is also a lot of FREE material shared on my social media channels: Being the Best You Can Be on Facebook and You Tube channel, alisonlaycock23 on twitter and Being.best.mindfulness on instagram. I am also happy to answer any questions through email firstname.lastname@example.org.
If you do purchase the book and wish to use the discount on one of the mindfulness or other courses through my business then please visit http://www.beingthebestyoucanbe.org to check out all the business offers.
In October 2019, my first book was published on Kindle and this is what I wrote on this blog about it.
On Friday, I published my book. Now, that’s a sentence I’ve been waiting to say since I was a young girl writing short stories for fun as well as reading any book I could. Normally, this blog would contain a book review, however even in my excitement I won’t be doing that. So, I thought instead as the author (smiles proudly), I could write a little about the writing and publishing process as well as a bit about the content of the book and certain decisions I made.
This is my latest travel book which I have recently uploaded to Amazon Kindle. I have been writing it since 2019 on and off and am very pleased to have finished it ready for people to purchase, read and review hopefully. I had thought this would be my first travel book as I started writing it in 2019 after publishing my first book ‘Being the Best You Can Be” and then ‘We all Walk our Own Camino’ came through to me and I had to complete that book when it called me.
‘Buses, trains but no planes: 23 countries and 45 places in 7 months’ covers my travels around Europe from 2018 to 2019 where I travelled by (yes you’ve guessed it) buses and trains but no planes despite being told it would be so much quicker. The whole appeal of Europe is surely that it can be travelled so easily from border to border rather than airport to airport.
Some of the countries it covers include: France, Italy, former Yugoslavian countries, Albania, Bulgaria, Luxembourg, Liechtenstein and many more. There is a travel journal at the end along with the journal prompts which come throughout the book along with information about the places visited as well as travel aspects such as minimalism whilst travelling, intentional travel, self-care.
If you are interested in travel, solo travel, journaling, Europe travel and/or travel stories then please check out the link below to buy the book at £5.99.
A few weeks ago, I had the great pleasure of chatting with Andreena Leeanne about her collection of poems ‘CHARRED: A survivor speaks her truth to inspire’. I have seen & heard first hand how much of an inspiration she is during events where she has shared her poems and especially during this interview where I caught my breath many times and I have no doubt you will too. At the end of the interview, you can find details of her self-care workshops and how to book one if you are interested. The review of her collection of poems will follow in a couple of weeks.
Andreena is an out and proud Black working-class Lesbian poet, inspirational speaker and mother. Let’s meet her.
How did you come to write poetry?
Andreena: I found poetry in 2014 when my girlfriend Germaine and I went to an open mic night and someone asked me ‘Would you like to go on the open mic?’ and I replied ‘no, I haven’t written a poem or done anything like that since I was a child. I’m only here to support my partner who wants us to do more things she’s interested in like going to events, theatres and museums’.
Later on during the event, I found the guy and told him ‘You know what, if you get me a pen and paper, I’ll write something and if I feel like sharing it then I will do’ and that’s what happened, In February 2014, I wrote and shared my 1st poem on an open mic and the rest is history as they say. Writing poetry has changed my life.
That’s very brave in that moment to ask for a pen and paper and just share it, that’s wonderful.
Andreena: Yes, I wrote about the night, the event and it came really naturally to me come to think of it and people have asked me since if I was interested in writing before and I’ve said ‘no’ but yeah I have.
Was that recently or as a child?
Andreena: As a teenager, I used to keep a journal and one day my mum (who I’ve had great difficulties with) came into my room and she opened up this journal I kept in my room. I’d written in big capital letters on it ‘I HATE MY MUM, I HATE MY MUM’ like doing lines for school. When I came home from school, my room was trashed, she had torn posters off my wall, had my journal and she asked, ‘What is this about you hate me?’
I was just livid – that I’d written something so personal and I couldn’t even share my feelings on paper. She confronted me about it and I was in big trouble for writing what I felt. I was a teenager and remember it vividly. From that day I vowed never to write anything down where anyone could see it and if I did write anything, I would burn it so that nobody ever got to see what I’d written.
Some people have commented ‘you write so naturally, you write from the heart, you’ve never studied poetry or anything like that, you’ve never been to poetry nights before this, now you’re writing like this, where did it come from?’
So I’ve reflected on that. I know that, had that situation not happened with my mum, I reckon I could have been a writer by now because I used to enjoy it. I used to write. Now having found poetry again, I’m nearly 40 so it’s been a long time and recently I’ve been going back and connecting the dots and figuring a lot out. A lot of that has been down to this book.
So I started going to poetry nights, my partner bought me a journal. I wrote poems as I went along to lots of events as I said ‘ Germaine, this is wonderful. Why have we not been doing this before’
We went round different poetry events in 2014 and then in January 2015 I started Poetry LGBT as I realised that there wasn’t really anywhere for us to express ourselves. There were lots of places we could go to drink and to party but not many places where we could write about how we feel and share that with anyone else. So over 6 years of Poetry LGBT, I filled up some journals.
What made you want to publish your poems?
Andreena: In 2018, my poems were published in an anthology called ‘Sista!’, an anthology by and about same-gender loving women of African and Caribbean descent with a UK connection. I was really proud of that as that’s the first time my poems have ended up in a published book.
International Women’s day March 2019 was the first time I wrote about my abuse experience because the theme of the event was ‘Protest’. For me, breaking my silence about my abuse was breaking my silence and protesting.
I spent the rest of the year thinking of the abuse and what I’d shared and then I shared the poem on the survivors trust website (http://www.thesurvivorstrust.org). As the months went on, it felt like I needed to talk and share more as in sharing that journey people have come to me and said ‘ I too am 1 in 4, that’s happened to metoo’ so at the time it felt like the most important thing.
In December 2019, I quit my job and dived into 2020 wanting to be an inspirational speaker, speaking my truth about abuse. In January, February and March 2020 I was building up some momentum of being this speaker with no experience of speaking by the way, just the experience of my own journey to share with others.
Then the pandemic happened which actually gave me a chance to reflect and think about how I wanted to share my truth. I looked at my journals and thought I’d like all my poems in a book so I thought where do I start with the book?
I remembered I’d been published in an anthology so I contacted the publishers ‘Team Angelica’, mentioned the 2 journals of poetry I had and said I’d like to share my experience of abuse and other things. I would like a book. John R Gordon, one of the publishers asked me to send my poems to him in a word document to see what we could do with them.
So I started typing up my poems from the journals as they were hand written. It was really traumatising, I was having to look back at poems from 2014 and type them up which meant I had to read them properly. It was such a painful process which took me ages but we were in lockdown anyway so I had time. I typed them up and sent them to John, he sent me an email after some time saying ‘These are a definite, these are a maybe and these we’ll leave out’we whittled them down to 50 from about 70.
I decided I wanted to publish the book on National Coming Out day which is 11thOctober but because of lockdown, the venue we wanted to use wasn’t open so it became the 9thOctober. I wanted National Coming Out day as it was my coming out with my truth about my abuse. I had a launch event on Zoom 9thOctober in ‘Gays the Word’ bookshop which was streamed online from there as Team Angelica have connections there.
It’s a collection of poems from my journals over the past 7 years. A few recent ones have been added around child abuse as all I could think of was all those children in lockdown being abused, whereas school could have been their escape from their abuser, schools were closed. So I was continually thinking of the child abuse of these children.
‘Covid 19 in silence’is in there as I thought about the pandemic and we were having to be silent due to wearing masks, silent as the Government were telling us what to do and silent because we can’t go and see our friends, so parallels of being silent and experiencing these difficult and strange times we’ve had.
Who is the book aimed at?
Andreena: It is mainly aimed at people who aren’t writers. I want to encourage people to write if they are not already doing so as writing has helped me immensely to deal with my issues. I used to be a 20 a day smoker and now I don’t smoke anymore. I don’t use any harmful or destructive behaviours as writing has been my safe thing to do to deal with my emotions.
It’s also for survivors of sexual abuse to gain courage from my words. Also for LGBT people who are not out, to find courage to come out, it’s also for people of colour. In the Black community, we don’t talk about our business, whatever happens in the house stays in the house, it doesn’t go outside and that’s quite destructive as there are quite a lot of things that happen in the house. If we carry on not speaking about it then these atrocities continue to happen so we need to speak about it to let people know that’s not normal.
It’s to encourage those who have experienced mental health problems to speak openly about their stuff because with me speaking my truth I then inspire others to speak openly about their truth. That’s why it’s so explicitly raw and also why I’ve put useful contacts at the back because you don’t normally find that in a poetry book but I’m quite mindful that the things I share may trigger other people who are then left with their feelings and what do they do?
It also shows resilience in the face of adversity, showing people, you can still live a happy and successful life having gone through all of these challenges which is all very important.
Do you think you’ll publish another book of poems or are these the most important ones?
Andreena: In recent challenges I’ve had, writing poems has been my way of dealing with it all, so I’ll always write poetry or short stories as my coping mechanism. Whether I choose to share it with everybody else is a different story as we don’t have to share everything we write with everybody.
I would like to create a self-help journal or something to do with self-care. I’m big on self-care because in dealing with all these difficult subjects, self-care is really important and has helped me to get through these difficult times so I want to pass that on too.
Is there going to be another book, the answer is, who knows, you don’t know where life is going to take you. It’s taken this long to get to this stage in my healing journey so it will take more time to put together something else.
I think there’s pressure to always churn out and produce more, I’ve given a lot of myself in this book and it hasn’t been easy as there are people who haven’t been happy with me. My mum is not happy that I’ve got all my business out in a book for all and sundry to see.
I would like to sit with this for a long time because I don’t really think any of these poems will ever get old as they are my life experiences and people can relate regardless of when they read them. It could be in 10 years-time and any of those poems will still be relevant then.
Yes there are such a wide range of topics you can go through. There’s clearly a thread through and some I go back to over and over.
Andreena: When I typed them up, I printed them out and then arranged them in the order I wanted them to be read in. From the start where I’m telling you these years have not been easy, this happened, then when that voice had to come out, my relationships and issues with people, then it’s about COVID and gets more like heavy as ‘No longer keeping secrets’. Then coming out as a lesbian in 2003 and this is the whole truth and nothing but the truth but also encouraging people again to speak your truth because it starts and ends with ‘Speak your truth’just before ‘The time is now’which is right at the end because that poem is about regardless of what has happened, now is really important.
I’ve also left space at the back for people to write if they want to and notes on self-care around what I do. Everyone’s been through stuff, no one has come through unscathed and the longer you go through life, the more you are going through stuff as you’re meeting more people. There’s always going to be something or someone in your life which doesn’t go well and some of us are more affected by whatever it is than others.
What were the easiest, hardest poems to write and publish?
Andreena: I find it easy to write about myself, my life and experiences. I can dig deep into myself and write about myself. I write in the moment that I feel something, if I feel upset. It usually takes me 10 minutes to write a poem.
I’m working on a project with someone in Newcastle and we’re writing about homelessness which is taking a long time as I’ve researched specifically about hidden homeless. It’s not coming from the heart then, it’s coming from a project I need to deliver. I’ve found being commissioned to write more difficult than writing something personal about myself.
In terms of writing, my most difficult poem is the ‘No longer keeping secrets’as it’s about child abuse, it’s my longest poem and most detailed poem. That one was the most difficult to write as it was very painful to go over what happened.
I’ve shared so many of your poems in mindfulness sessions, silent retreats and courses. ‘My Mind’, ‘Happiness’, ‘Speak your Truth’, ‘The time is now’ more than others. Is mindfulness/ meditation important to you as there are so many parts of those poems which really resonate with me and my mindfulness practice?
Andreena: Mindfulness and meditation are really important for me. I discovered mindfulness about 10 years ago. There was a focus at work on wellbeing and someone came in to work to do a session on mindfulness and that’s when I first heard about it. We did mindful eating with a piece of chocolate and we had to smell it, hold it up to our ear, look at it, hold it on our tongue for a while and really savour the taste so we did that. Even to this day I’m very mindful when I’m eating as I really like to taste my food and enjoy it.
So, that’s when I discovered mindfulness and over the years I’ve really focussed on being still and spend time in Nature. It’s really helped me as I was very erratic before and was always busy and now I can sit still. I recognise that before I never wanted time to think about what I’ve been through.
Since finding meditation, walks in the park and nature, I’ve been able to sit still and enjoy quiet moments. I never wanted to be by myself but it is weird, that’s changed my life as well I guess. I know for a fact if I feel stressed to the maximum, I get this pain in my neck, like this unrelenting pain in my neck. I know that’s a sign for me to drive somewhere coastal, or the seaside or somewhere where there is water. All of a sudden the pain from my neck goes, I feel calmer when I spend time in nature. I’ve only discovered that as I did it and it worked and because it worked once, I’ve done it again and over the years, I’ve found that works.
That’s why self-care is so important and I’ve started delivering self-care writing workshops where I use a self-care wheel and encourage people to investigate what self-care means to them. In my writing workshop or any space I create it’s a warm and welcoming space. I’m not teaching how to write poems. I’m showing that this has helped me, it may help others who can write however they feel comfortable and they don’t have to share it unless they want to. That’s what makes it accessible to everyone as anyone can turn up to my workshop and come away with something they’ve written.
What advice would you give any budding poets?
Andreena: I would say just do it, everyone has a story just write, do it. It’s not a competition so it doesn’t matter. We spend so much time comparing ourselves to other people and saying we’re not good enough. I spent lots of time comparing and listening to other people. That’s not healthy or helpful. Just do it if you want to write, just write, you don’t have to have a degree in English to write, just write. You never know it could end up in a book!
Where can readers find you?
Andreena: Instagram @survivor.andreena.leeanne and Facebook: Andreena Leeanne. I’ll also show up in a google search.
Is there anything you wish to close with?
Andreena: I want to say to people that you are important, you are enough and there will only ever be one you. You take care of yourself. Speak your truth because it’s really important. It’s not about speaking your truth and running off into the sunset and living happily ever after.
Your truth may be slightly different to their version of events but it’s important to speak your truth and live your life. You only have one life so you might as well live it to the best of your ability and even if people don’t agree or like you , there are lots of people who will like you and agree with you. I also want to say there is life after abuse as well. Lots of people have their experiences and challenges but it doesn’t stop you from living a happy and fulfilled life. You’re in charge of that, you are in charge of your journey and that’s why it is important you speak your truth. It all ties in together, it really does.
Details of Andreena’s self-care workshop:
I would love to work with your organisation to give your staff and service users access to my interactive, affordable and highly beneficial self-care writing workshop.
With people returning to face to face work or having been affected by the pandemic, these self-care writing workshops offer a fantastic opportunity for people to reflect and identify the best self-care solutions for themselves whilst exploring their creativity.
The workshops are available virtually and/or physically with a choice of 60/90/120 minutes.
Full details, including costs and discounts for charities and multiple bookings are available. Please do not hesistate to contact me should you have any questions or need additional information about the self-care writing workshops.
Recently, I had the great pleasure of interviewing A.J Loksley about their collection of 13 poems entitled ‘Deep Down Inside Yourself: Listen To Your Voice’. Their poems have really struck me and I have used some of them during my retreats and mindfulness courses as they resonate so much. The interview took place through emails back and forth as A.J wishes to remain private and therefore didn’t want to meet face to face through Zoom which is explained throughout the questions. ‘Deep Down Inside Yourself: Listen to your voice’ is available for 99p from Amazon in the Kindle format as A.J decided to self-publish and make them affordable for as many people as they could. I have to admit that the interview went in an unexpected direction and I am grateful to A.J for being so open and honest and answering the questions in detail. Let’s meet A.J.
What made you want to publish your poems?
AJL: I nearly didn’t to be honest. Poetry has been important to me over the years, probably since I was a young child and it has been my release in the most helpful way. I wrote these poems during the start of lockdown which I thought would remain just for me like all the others and then something shifted. I started to think about others like me who could be struggling through lockdown and wanted to give them hope, either through my poems or in showing how creativity could help us in these times.
Who is the book aimed at?
AJ: Anyone who enjoys poetry really. It was important for me that the poems stand in their own right so I didn’t want to include any information about myself in an introduction or any other part so I simply published the 13 poems. There are poems which cover many aspects of life and I didn’t want to prevent readers from enjoying them if they were put off by any personal information about the poet. These poems like all poetry should be able to stand by themselves and speak for themselves.
Is this why you wanted to stay private and conduct the interview via email rather than Zoom and haven’t supplied any photos of yourself?
AJ: Yes. Privacy is very important to me and for a while I just wanted the poems to exist for all to enjoy without having my personal information linked to them that would change people’s view of them. I identify as pansexual and non-binary which I didn’t want to influence the reader’s views. There is nothing about my identity that I’m not happy or not proud of and I don’t wish to give the wrong impression in staying private so I decided to share that in interviews. It’s important for all to be happy with themselves and I write about that in the poems and the great gift of being able to hear and accept ourselves. At the end of the day, it is my business, however I was in conversation the other day with LGBTQ+ young people and I realised how the LGBTQ+ community still needs strong role models to lead their lives fully accepting of themselves so that we can set that example for others.
So, would you like me to advertise this interview and your book under the terms you have mentioned above?
AJ: Yes, they are maybe the main details aren’t they to help others and if I keep the others private then there is less conversation or questions. For me, being known as the poet isn’t necessary and I wish to live my life that way but I am proud of that and even prouder of the acceptance I have found. So yes, I’m a LGBTQ+ poet who identifies as pansexual and non-binary and am very happy in the life I’ve found and made.
I was wondering if Mindfulness or Meditation plays a part in your acceptance of your identity as many of the poems certainly make me think of Mindfulness as they remind me to take time to notice my life?
AJ:There is definitely something at play isn’t there. The stage I was at when writing the poems is no doubt reflective of me finding my way back to some sort of practice again which was prompted by lockdown and not feeling as free as I have done for years. I felt a loss of control which I really struggled with so yes, I guess I did revert back to the coping mechanisms I had when I first felt the same lack of control around my sexuality and gender identity.
I wanted to truly consider this question so it is important for the reader of this interview to know that I have come back to this question after some time as I was aware I hadn’t answered the first part of the question about whether practice, mindful or otherwise was involved in my acceptance.
Acceptance was a slow and long process for me as I didn’t necessarily have that support around me which would encourage me to be open or to even be able to investigate who I really was. That’s something we all need really isn’t it, that freedom to truly find out who we are without judgement from others or even ourselves. Looking back, techniques did help me with acceptance and becoming aware of who I was and who I wanted to be, who I wanted to love and be loved by and how I wanted to present myself and walk through this world. The techniques could be called mindfulness, meditation and even prayer or seeking for something better and wanting more for others as well as myself. Through hurting and coming close to ending my life, I knew to go forward I had to go forward truly authentically and working through pain and dealing with every part of that and myself I have gone forward and am more content with my life.
To fully accept yourself is the greatest gift we can give ourselves and through silence and hearing myself, my needs and my wants, I was fortunate to find my way. Fortunate, yes but it also took a lot of hard work and maybe that is what can be seen in the poetry. I do believe everybody regardless of their sexuality or identity can benefit from some sort of breathing practice and to be able to sit with themselves and move further and further towards acceptance of their whole selves.
Where can people get a copy of your poems?
AJ: I have self-published it as a Kindle book on Amazon for only 99p so that it is available for many people no matter what their financial situation may be. The poems may help others and if they prompt the readers to have a go at expressing themselves some way then even better.
Any other thoughts?
AJ: I would like to thank all of those who have been part of my journey to here, through my struggles and into this time of contentment and acceptance and those who will read the poems and find something in them. Alison, I don’t know if you will print this but I would like to also thank you for reaching out and also being respectful of my wishes the whole way through as that is such an important aspect of LGBTQ+ life, to be respected and accepted.
This isn’t a book review as after all how can I possibly review my own book! I won’t review it, however I will share it with you on this blog. Yes, this is my travel book and no, this is not the one I may have already mentioned. The book I’ve recently written and uploaded to Kindle as an e-book is called ‘We all walk our own Camino’ and is about my Camino journey and how it has affected me and my life.
Have you ever read a book that’s made you want to go out and travel straight away? For me, that book is ‘The Amazing Story of the Man who Cycled from India to Europe for Love’ by Per J Andersson who writes about PK and Lotta and their love story.
This interview took place in 2018 and has been re-published several times. I’m including it in this round as Nigel is currently working on the sequel to ‘Lost in Manchester, Found in Vegas’ which is due out in 2021. If you haven’t yet read ‘Lost in Manchester, Found in Vegas’, I would recommend it.
This book found me whilst I was shopping ahead of going to my family caravan in mid-Wales for a long quiet break to read as much as I could. Although, the young adult category doesn’t often catch my eye, this book did and I’m so glad it did.
I am currently reading ‘Show me the way to Santiago’ by Peter Kay and through email, we have conducted an interview with me sending Peter questions which he has kindly provided the answers to below. This interview and the subsequent book review to follow has arisen through an approach made to me by E Rachael Hardcastle at CuriousCatBooks who had seen another interview and book review I had covered on this blog (Nigel Cartner). She explained that Peter had written about his Camino de Santiago pilgrimage and that he was raising money through the sale of his book for MNDA. As I have also walked the Camino de Santiago and written about my journey, I was happy to read another Camino book and to also support Peter in reaching potential readers and supporters of MNDA. The book was sent to me free of charge and this interview and book review is being written and shared free of charge.